Shallow thoughts

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Brendan's Lament

There are twin brothers
that construct and
deconstruct all of us.
If you look close
you can see the
brothers raging war.
The destructor is
always the victor: always.
Raping and
ravaging the happiness
from an otherwise
utopian world.

This is a place of life abundance
and yet there is death.
And I wonder ‘why?’
The ever-present creation
and its equal devestation.
Again—Why?

Akita- meaning the searcher
of the divine Creator.
This was my vision of God
and now I live its name:
searching for some reason
in the pains that we face
and asking – Why?
– Why must he have such control?
– Why does death reign with an unfair and uncorrectable absoluteness?
– Why is there a child that cries in the wake?
– Can the tears of one child negate the joys felt by a thousand others?
The answer becomes obvious.

Akita a place of an undeniable
presence of the Maker.
Children laughing; blossoms bloom.
Life – Death.
Unmistakably both are present.
It pains to realize that
there is darkness
even in the light.

Somewhere a child weeps
for his lost mother.
He remains, yet his innocence
is now a distant memory.
Like the parched mouth
longing for the renewal of water:
but there is no water.
I want to understand.
I want to help the child,
but I know that regardless
of what I do or try to say
my words are meaningless.
And so the child weeps.

Somewhere is the Father.
And His love is with
the weeping child at all times.
The child cannot sense Him
and so the child weeps.

Here lies the weeping child,
unaware of the love that still surrounds.
I offer one thought that
the child must remember:
that even in the death’s darkness
is the light of God.

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This poem is for Brendan. Please pray for him and his family.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

11.02.2004

We the People of the United States, in Order to form a more perfect Union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

Escaping America’s optimism,
I find myself bemused.
No thought for my future,
for the future is no more.
We the people?
We the people?
We the people
have been forgotten
as we lurch towards
non-existent dreams.
Sadly, I find solace
that I am not alone,
but the comfort,
like our freedoms,
is fleeting.

Help! I cry out,
my pleas are thrown
to the pyre and
quickly forgotten.
Again—Help!
it does no good.
I get down on my knees
and pray to the heavens,
but the heavens
now serve another.

We have been forsaken
by all that we have
known as sacred.
Our country;
our planet;
our heavens
have been decimated
to memories
and hellfire.

And death shall
have no dominion
in a world in which
fear and disarray
reign with the same
absolute power that
freedom and liberty once held..
We cannot hold
allegiance to trepidation
and tyranny.

Revolt!

Defeat.

Efforts are refuted;
the puppet prevails
in a battle against
what was once
his source of power:
We the people.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Mark of the Son

I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son
Living my life; plagued by the actions of one
Wandering the world, my sentence begun
When this began I too was his son
Now I realize I’m a son to no one

I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son
I’m always paying for the crimes that I’ve done
No thoughts of grace for me, I have none
Constant convictions of guilt all day long
This is the life that I built, I blame no one

I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son
Knowing I’ll never do good to no one
I question my place and why I have none
I question my Lord as if there was one
As I question my finger as it holds the gun

I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son
I am society’s child, simply gone wrong
No happiness, joy or love for anyone
Singing of pain and death in my song
I carry my burden, yes I carry it along

I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son
May have killed Abel now my soul too is done
Branded, scarred; I’m no good to anyone
For I have the name of the father
And the mark of the son

Untitled (aka Hippie Poem #3 or 4.18.06)

Sitting outside sensing;
my body is motionless
yet my mind is at work
dancing through nature.

Trees watch with their knotted-eyes
idly observing everything
true in their world.

Three bees perform an aerial ballet:
perfectly orchestrated.

I sit in silenced amazement
As Lennon tells me great truths
― Do the Oz! Do the Oz!
Surreal and real merge yielding:
NOW!

Birds are speaking
in a silent soliloquy of motion-
as others roguely fly in equal beauty
that can only be recreated
in the fantasy of childhood.

Is there anything truer
in beauty or innocence
than a spring Athens day—
full of emerging life—
and the utopia of a youthful mind?

Blossoms fall like snow;
coalescing in chaotic elegance.
I prefer this snow
to its cold-weather brethren,
just as I favor the life of spring
to the prolonged death of winter.

Now to share the most obvious truth
that no one will ever say:
― Nature’s life is the same within
as it is with out. And the new
life of a blossoming flower
yields as much joy as a new-born babe.

Flower: children
life: love.

There is a precision in nature
that man can only fail to recreate.

Monday, April 10, 2006

To Believe (incomplete)

The Carpenter works wonders
At least that’s what I’m told
They say his fingers never wander
Doing exactly what they’re told
Moving with a precision
One could never understand
They say this whole world
Can be traced to his hand
And I want to believe

The Fat-Man works wonders
At least that’s what I’m told
They say his heart holds wonders
That never can be told
He says the truth of happiness
Lies somewhere in between
The life that we live
And the places that we dream
And I want to believe

The Elephant-Man work wonders
At least that’s what I’m told
They say his heart brings harmony
And his story is often told
He removes the pain and suffering
Relaxing all of those that believe
Bringing times of fortune
As easily as gathering leaves
And I want to believe

Icarus

I will rise in unfounded pride
Laying claim to false triumphs
Believing in my exaltations
When if light and truth were cast
They would reveal nothing
But fear and trepidation
My life has become a longing
For what is not mine and never was
The failed dreams that were once
Known as my aspirations
Have yielded to the death known as life
Ruling with the absoluteness
Of a totalitarian tyrant tormenting
Those that wish to rise up
And become something
This is the only truth in the world
If you rise up you will get knocked down
Like the “Wak-a-Mole” at Chuck-E-Cheese
And I surrender to the words
Of a thousand dreamers who failed to do
And an equal number of doers
Who simply failed to dream
“If you fight you will fail”