2.21.06

For months I lived in a web of deceit
Living for moments as fleeting as a child’s innocence
Much of the time I had believed love to be a sacred place
But now what had been known simply as ‘love’
Has been recast as a dark unrelenting pain
I want to break free and I plead for strength
But I find none, maybe I’d been looking
In shadows for a source of light
Like a starving man searching for food
In a field ravaged by merciless drought
No haven or sanctuary to be found
And so I continued in my world of false hopes
Constantly casting and recasting those that enter my life
Could it be you? Are you her? Will you love?

I emerge from the haze that my life had become
Looking for answers in vain
To questions that had never been asked
Life has no answers; and, surely no one will pass
The tests we place on ourselves
Which are doomed from the start
As are the beliefs that love comes from the heart
These are the problems that plague a world
Based on the deeds of Casanovas and the tales that they told
Cast off the preconceived notions of life and love
And from that unreality realize that you are your own light
I am the divine creator as are you and as is she
Live, love, create